What I Was Going to Say About Evan


He died a year ago. My first friend. His birthday

was in July same day as my Aunt Blanche

he never remembered mine exactly

so we would both celebrate his and he would

write me a note on a beautiful paper engraved

I’d save them each year  his handwriting

beautiful too he would tell me how long

we’d known one another what we each knew

sometimes he’d repeat a story from our childhood

the time Aunt Ida did this or that and I’d

write him the same sort of note he’d wanted to paint

like Oscar Kokschka  I was going to be a writer

write about me he said more than once and the last time

we had lunch he asked what I was going to say.


Esther Cohen
Let me tell you why I'm here, and why I hope you'll join me. I am here to poem, to play with words, to tell stories when I can, and to ask you for yours. Words are what I love, how I see, and what I say. Words are how I know my life, and how I find my friends. I'm here to ask you to join me. Right here. To send me your stories, and your poems. And to read mine when you can.


  1. It is very difficult to lose old friends. Their loss never diminishes.
    You do honor to your friend Evan to remember him in your poem. If only we could speak at least once to a beloved friend to tell him or her how much we love them and what they mean to us. If only, they could speak to us, too.

  2. Just a followup to remembering a beloved person who is no longer among us: some years ago right before Father’s Day I was missing my father very much — I had lost him when I was quite young. I started writing a letter from him to me and to my brother in which I had him say all the many of the things we had longed to hear from him, but never had because of his early death. Things like he loved us and was proud of the men we had become. It helped me get somehow get through the day, but I continued writing letters to children (including me) trying to offer them words of encouragement they could call upon when needed. They eventually became a book, ”Words I Wish Someone Had Said to Me As A Kid,” and which can be downloaded for free at: https://www.makebeliefscomix.com/e-books-apps/ Just click on the book’s cover to download.
    Letters are very important — they help hold us together. We mustn’t forget to write them.

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